We sat at the table with less light you picked carefully. Nervous, I walked around it the wrong way twice. I had walked around the car the wrong way too before stepping up onto the curb.
I hope you didn’t see that. I had trouble finding the door.
Before, I padded through my cool bedroom getting dressed, getting ready, and stuck the mascara wand directly in my eye. I forgot here and there which garment came after which—and I tell you it’s a miracle I met you with my bra on under my clothes.
Inside you found me, dressed and made up with the same kind of hot trouble that adorns your coffee. I did one eyebrow darker than the other accidentally but only worried about you noticing in the fraction of time it took for us to embrace and stake the flag of our friendship through the vanquished body of fear.
No self-consciousness here. No need. Not one.
We held hands and spoke of esoteric things. I will tell you the light was all yours that attracted a witness prowling for converts and a man with a chaos tattoo. The prowler wanted to suffocate the light. The tattooed man poked it curiously. And I sat looking with one dark eyebrow raised loving you for it— for your fire for your shadows too. Call. Call.
I am an essayist and poet. My work has been rejected by some of the finest journals in America. Fortunately, it also gets accepted from time to time and has appeared in equally fine journals such as Word Riot, Inlandia, Brew City Magazine, and SageWoman, among others.. In 2002, I won the Academy of American Poets Prize for Vanderbilt University.
For no good reason, I possess an unnecessarily dark humor which is why being third generation California Inland Empirian delights me so. My gods are weird. I once won $350 for writing a smartassed essay on “why the wise use of water is important in my daily life”. I am undoubtedly the Greek god Hermes’ special snowflake. I’m pretty sure I got into college via a series of fortuitous clerical errors.
When I had to grow up and get a real job, I decided against it and stayed a writer. I have worked many odd—and I mean odd—jobs to support my habit: PR writer for country music hopefuls, resume massager, WalMart fitting room attendant and switchboard operator, and telephone psychic, just to name a few.
I am also albino. That's why my psychic gifts are so strong. I traded in my pigment for magical foresight, because that's how it works. It gets all technical. Trust me. That's totally how it works.
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